FlickyTailSunrise

Round: 8

Rounds to go: 4 (8weeks)

This Round has changed expectations again, but equally reminded me how very far I have come. A little over two months ago I was in one of the darkest places I have ever been in my life. Round 6 one of the most relieved.

…But the beginning of both Round 7 and 8 have reminded me that no matter how prepared or optimistic I might be the neutropenic pit is unavoidable. I am sleeping longer than I have before and the fatigue chasms of emptiness in these periods, leave me frightened in their nothingness.

Equally, as DrP and others have reminded me, this is where the poison is doing its hardest work. Further, the resilience and incredible strength of my KevKev leaves me quite breathless. How he manages in those down days to hold me steady and still find the light in the day is a true testament to him indeed being  ‘an incredible ‘un’.

Today, whilst still full of poison I can feel the edges of normality creeping back in and that helps me reach forward to the Hope of better days on the horizon. The days where I choose, maybe unwisely, to forget the fog of the six days prior and seek that light, fizz free.*

In other news, my hair is returning and in keeping with the season, looks just like duckling fuzz.

Happy exam revision season everyone. Spring does hold hope and promise, it is here…

*fizzy legs and hands are now a constant daily side effect