Perhaps the biggest side effect has been the relentless wave of anxiety. It washes over and through me constantly, with triggers so numerous, the wave so all consuming there is little to do but wait and know this too shall pass.
After a few days of the constant roll of the anxiety wave I have taken to adding self talk into my morning walk. This, being an out loud firm chat, I have little doubt that I must now look rather touched as I walk around Rattlesden village chuntering away to my other self… The self talk voice is firm and positive, reminding me particularly this time, that I have done this 9 times before. I have survived numerous and uncomfortable side effects and hospital visits. I am much loved and the power of thought and prayer are more constant than the temporary waves.
In short: I am OK, I can do this, the alternative is not the path I have chosen and just look at how beautiful the world can be. Breathe…
Round 10 starts today.
I will be OK.
With love 🧡
FlickyTailSunrise 
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