Waking up at home was wonderful. The 5.30am morning call had birds so full of chirrrups it made the air buzz and me smile. DeeDee, all stretchy in her happy reachouts, sat on me with her healing purr, not hurried for her breakfast. It was good. Small but good. The last four days were a…

Monday evening and still in West Suffolk AAU. I did get rather excited earlier when the morning round AAU Dr told me an evening discharge was in the offing. My throat had eased, the sun was shining and I was sure to be on the home road… Then, the marvellous DrP appeared. Apparently my throat…

So currently am in AAU for an overnighter hopefully. Arrived yesterday at 7.30am and was advised to stay in by 4.30pm… Last week I was advised to have a COVID booster, something I was a bit wary of, (bar the fact that it stole two good days from me) once in the Round, and once…

Round: 8 Rounds to go: 4 (8weeks) This Round has changed expectations again, but equally reminded me how very far I have come. A little over two months ago I was in one of the darkest places I have ever been in my life. Round 6 one of the most relieved. …But the beginning of…

The first 6 days of Round 7 hit a bit like a truck arriving from Round 2 or 4. It felt familiar but it was unwelcome. Fatigue, nausea and general malaise settled in, leaving me bed bound for two of the six days. After the good news of the scan I suspect I had anticipated…

In the run up to scan results day yesterday, it was all deep breaths and distractions. Time again became kairos, all about qualitative time. Taking each moment and enjoying every part of it. Anxiety lurked underneath, but was kept in check with deep breaths and wonderfully distracting friends. Despite forgetting to check in and waiting…

For a while I had a rather strange idea that things would simplify as time went on in this journey. That I would come to terms with aspects and be able to better tackle the next step. At the moment things feel as muddled as my attempts to learn how to crochet. One thing has…

So Round 6 is to be delayed… My bloods have come back showing elevated enzymes in my liver. Given that the chemo targets the liver as well as the other areas, DrP feels it is best to delay Treatment for this week. Round 6 is the halfway point. The big reveal with a full internal…

This has been a good Round. Thanks mainly I think to my decision to walk through the side effects and take an amble everyday. It didn’t dispel them entirely, but my mindset felt better, The Pit wasn’t so dark and deep which was absolutely the objective. I have relished this gift of time, the promise…

As Round 5 begins today, a time to focus on the positives: The sun has reappeared and meant 4 morning walks, 5 if today is included, where I nipped out for a quickie before leaving today. I am nearly halfway through… We managed a mini adventure to Norfolk, where KevKev and I ran down from…