September and the world around me has refocussed on beginnings. For the first time in 18years I’m feeling the end of Summer more sharply than ever before. It has been an excellent Summer.
This chemo free existence was not anxiety free. The biggest stimulus for the anxiety was wondering if I’d made the right decision taking this three month break. Would the cancer run riot inside me? Would I go back to the beginning and erase the work done over the six months I’d been in treatment? Thankfully the wisdom of friends and KevKev persuaded me otherwise. I needed the break and am better for it.
If only the news received today had come at the beginning then all that anxiety may not have built to the peak it did yesterday. Thank God as ever for KevKev for putting me back together again.
There is slight growth in my lung, strange given that that was the area that responded best to chemo initially. The rest though has remained stable thankfully. So back to Treatment it is, set for the 14th. A week to get my head on straight and ready for the next three months. A beginning of sorts and one that remains filled with hope.
With love 🧡
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